| Annual Update YAY!!! |
[Nov. 12th, 2006|06:26 am] |
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Let's see... where to start... Hmmm... I'm not with Pat anymore. We drifted apart but he wants to try again... I'm having reservations just because it was so easy to drift apart the first time. *shrugs* I've been single too long I think. I can't stand being in relationships lately... yet... I want one. *slams head into the desk* I just don't want to be in a relationship for the sake of being in one... know what I mean? I want the magic!! I want to feel the butterflies in my stomach when I'm around them. I want the goosebumps when I think about them. I want to look forward to spending time with them. (NO SMOTHERING! *LOL*) Part of me wants to say it's that or nothing... and I'm not finding it so looks like I have a whole lot of nothing ahead of me. Pat is nice... uber nice... BUT the only thing we have in common is our love of movies. Great right?? Wrong! We like different kinds of movies!!! ARG!!! I love guys with a sense of humor... He tries to make people laugh I'll give him that, but they just look at him (including me) like... "Um... yea... anyways..." It's sad to say I know... but it's true! And I was that nagging girlfriend which I hate to be. Example... he lives with his Mom and a slob named Dave in a bad part of town. Pat wanted to rent-to-own a wide screen tv. *blink blink* Ok you can't afford to get a better place to live in... but you want to rent-to-own a tv that won't last a week in your neighborhood. And while Dave the slob was being more lazy than usual and not even trying to find a job, and while his Mom was kept from working her normal hours due to health issues making him the bread winner in the household... he wanted to cut his hours and go back to school. *blink blink* Ok in the long run, yeah that would work... but when you're the one holding down the steady job and paying the bills... *shrugs* I just felt he deserved someone who'd want to encourage him to follow his dreams. Such as the book he's writing and wants to someday publish. I've read some of it... and it just sounds like a Dark Tower clone. Maybe I'm just beyond help and nothing will ever compare to what I want. Wow... what a rant. I better stop before I go too much farther. I'll continue this later. Right now it's 6am and I've yet to go to bed! *LOL* TTYL |
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| Damn it's been a long time! |
[May. 12th, 2006|01:27 pm] |
Came looking out of curiosity to see what's been happening here and realized... only had one post for the year! I really have been obsessed with Myspace! *LOL* Well let's see... to update everyone, I have a brand spanking new computer that my friend Steven built me. I bought the parts of course. Better than what I could get basic from Dell and for about the same price.
Ginger now has her own apt and her own roommate problems to deal with. *LOL* Our co-worker Nancy forced herself on her. Now they're in a STUDIO together. How dumb is that? Well... Nancy's always at her boyfriends place anyways, so I guess it sorta works. Now Ginger is left to hold her stuff basically. *shrugs* Not my problem anymore!!!
I have a new boyfriend, Patrick Anderson. He's Steven's brother btw. It's still in it's beginning stages so I can't say it's love right now... but we'll see where it goes!
I WAS looking forward to going to Ozzfest this July. BUT too many of my friends are coworkers now and the one who bought his ticket first and inspired the rest of us to want to go should get the day off even though I was approved already... *sulks* My hate my conscience.
Well... that's really about it. Till next time I remember this place! |
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| Wow has it been a while!!!! |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|10:54 pm] |
Yeah it's now 2006 and I FINALLY update this place again. *LOL* Well my MySpace has kept my attention these past few months. For those that I haven't talked to in ages, this is what's been going on!
1. Computer is up and running thanks to my co-worker Scotty2Hotty.
2. I have a roommate now. It's not working out as I had planned though. She's my best friend from California and she got kicked out of her home. I'm the only one who was willing and able to take her in. But we are so opposite that we get on eachother's nerves constantly and I look for excuses to get out of the apt every chance I get. Yeah it's that bad.
3. Fell off a bus and may have possibly broken my ankle because it hasn't quite healed up like it should have by now. And stubborn me doesn't want to go to a doctor.
4. That same weekend, my apt flooded... AGAIN! After 2 weeks I've finally got all my stuff back in, just gotta organize it now.
5. Been dating this guy named Pat for about a month now. He seems nice and sweet enough. He's one of those nice guys that girls always say they want. But his personality is a bit dull and I don't know how much longer this will last. He's very caring though. But I wish there was more there. Know what I mean?
Aside from all that. Nothing much has happened. *LOL* Had a tough Christmas with it being my first without my Dad. Just wish people would have stopped reminding me. I was always fine until they mentioned him. I know it's going to be tough these next couple months. My Dad's birthday is coming up on the 16th and then next month will be 1 year from when we lost him. SO I just have to keep a chin up. Know he's better where he is now and rejoice in the fact that when I die, I'll see him again. Which also, I'm not afraid of death like I used to be. Let me backtrack. When I was 25 I was scared of living and of dying. I saw life as a constant struggle to stay alive. People take all these precautions to prevent their death should an accident or incident occur. But now I know he's waiting for me where ever death leads us. And I'm not afraid anymore. If I die young, I'll miss that I didn't get to do alot of things I wanted. But so be it. Wasn't meant to be that way. Although I like to think there is a purpose for us all and I don't think I've found mine yet. So it'll be a while still I think. *LOL* OKokokok I'm getting too deep, even for myself! So I'll leave it there for now. TTYL |
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| I want to cry |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|05:10 pm] |
This whole computer thing this shitty to say the least. I want to kill my friend Giorgos for selling me such a lemon. I get the internet hooked up, and in less than 24 hours, I get the blue screen of death. Then I make no plans whatsoever for Sunday, thinking that my friends Steven and Scott are coming over to look at it and possibly help... Not even a fucking call to say they can't come over. I'm so pissed off right now. What pisses me off more is knowing I'm such a nice person, that the moment they apologize and do come over, I'm going to feel bad for being pissed in the first place. Gawd I'm such a push over. If I didn't already spend the money to go to California, I wouldn't go. I just want to tear the computer out of the wall and start breaking things. |
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| 100 THINGS.... |
[Oct. 9th, 2005|06:37 pm] |
100 THINGS.... repost this with your answers:
1* First grade teacher's name: Mrs Devoy
2* Last word you said: Buh-bye
3* Last song you sang: The doom song! Doomdy doomdy doom...
4* Last person you hugged: Giorgos
5* Last thing you laughed at: At Ryan last night during the game.
6* Last time you said I dont remember: Actually in #7 because I'm answering from the bottom up.
7* Last time you cried: Don't remember
9* What color socks are you wearing: None
10* What's under your bed: Carpet
11* What time did you wake up today: 11:45
12* Current taste: Um.... Fry's brand Beefy Pasta with pepsi. *LOL*
13* Current hair: In a ponytail
14* Current annoyance: My lingering cough
15* Current longing: *sigh* For one of my crushes to say they want me.
16* Current desktop background: Night Elf
17* Current worry: Money
18* Current hate: My cough (yes, it's so annoying I hate it)
19* Current favorite article of clothing: My new dark jeans.
20* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: From the front, the eyes, from the rear... the rear!
21* Last CD that you listened to: Chevelle
22* Favorite place to be: Clicks
23* Least favorite place: Bus stops at night
24* Time you wake up in the morning: About 5
25* If you could play an instrument, what instrument would that be? Drums
26* Favorite color: Purple
27* Do you believe in an afterlife: Still debating
28* How tall are you: 5'4
29* Current favorite word/saying: Eh? or EH!
31* Favorite book: Don't have one.
32* Favorite season: Spring and Autumn
33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: My Dad
*FUTURE*
35* Where do you want to go for college? If I went back, maybe ASU since I'm like 15 min away!
36* What is your career going to be like: Hopefully better than it is now!
37* How many kids do you want: No more than 4
*HAVE YOU EVER...*
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: Lots of times.
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: *LOL* No
41* Been to New York: Nope
42* Been to Florida: Nope
43* Been to California: Born and Raised
44* Been to Hawaii: Nope
45* Been to Mexico: Yep (lived on the border)
46* Been to China: Nope
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: OMG YES! I dreamed that I was at work and received a call from someone trying to book a ride in Australia. I explained to them that we don't transport there and that was the end of it. The NEXT DAY, about 15 min before I'm off work, I get a call from a guy in Australia! He saw us on the internet and wanted to book a ride for him Mom and Sister in the states. I was shaking like a leaf!
*RANDOM*
52* Do you have a crush on someone: Yes, I'm bad, I have more than one crush.
53* What book are you reading now: None at this time.
54* Worst feeling in the world: The first reaction to hearing you've lost a loved one.
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning?: "I'M LATE!"
56* How many rings before you answer: Well I can't tell on my cell phone with the ring tones, and I usually just let the VM pick up my house phone.
57* Future daughter's name: Emily Devin
58* Future son's name: Nathaniel Owen
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Yes, 2 of them. A bear and a kitty.
60* If you could have any job you wanted what would it be? Whatever job allowed me to do nothing and get paid lots and lots of money for it. *nods* 61* Someone you wish were here: My Dad
63* Piercings: Yes, 3 in the left ear, 2 in the right
*THE EXTRA STUFF*
64* Do you do drugs: Only legal ones
65* Do you drink: Yes
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Suave
68* What are you most scared of: Death
69* What clothes do you sleep in: Usually whatever shirt I wore that day.
70* Who is the last person that called you: Patti
71* Who is the last person that you called: Patti
72* Where do you want to get married: Out doors, someplace nice.
73* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: My metabolism
74* Who do you really hate: Whom ever drew all over my sidewalk with a marker last night.
76* Are you timely or always late: Little of both
77* Do you like being around people: Sometimes
79* Are you for world peace: Sure why not
80* Are you a health freak: Hell no
81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: Funny
82* Do you want someone you don't have? Yes
83* Are you lonely right now: Sorta
84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: Yes
85* Do you want to get married: Yes
86* Do you want kids? Yes
*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
87* Cried: NO
88* Bought Something: Yes, lots of things. Including my tickets to California next week.
89* Gotten Sick: I still have my cough from last week.
90* Sang: Nope
91* Said I Love You: Yes, talked to Patti (my stepmom) today to tell her the arrangements for my visit next week.
92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: *sigh* Yes
93* Met Someone: New, no. Met up with friends, yes.
94* Moved on: *sigh* Had too
95* Talked To Someone: Duh
96* Had A Serious Talk: Nope
97* Missed Someone: Always
98* Hugged Someone: Yep, Giorgos
99* Yelled at Someone: Not in anger, just from across the room. *LOL*
100* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: Yeah... Just last night even. |
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